I’ve been so absent lately.
I’m kind of in this weird in between recovery and relapse world. Here’s the run down on what’s been going on. I’ve been training my dog to be a therapy dog, we’ve been going to classes (with people!) and I’ve been going to adoption/volunteer events at shelters. I’m even opening an etsy and selling pet related things to help out a shelter near me, and I’m hoping to do some more in person selling too. I’m doing okay in school, and I’m not paranoid about classes like usual. A boy even talked to me for two hours and then asked me for my number and we’ve been texting a lot, which makes my heart all fluttery of course. And my eating has been really fine, I’m not even as anxious about it as I usually am. So a lot of great things are happening! At the same time, I’ve been self harming a lot. A lot, a lot. Not because of the stress of everything going on, in fact I’m loving everything that’s been going on in my life. I just feel this need to self harm and I’m having a lot of trouble resisting. It’s really frustrating, and I feel awful about it. That’s why I’ve been so withdrawn, I have a lot of trouble speaking up when I’m struggling. I just want to let you all know I’m a-okay, and I love you all, and I’ll try to update as much as I can. Stay strong. <3